Testing, testing, testing, gone…

I am sure by now everyone knows I have mental issues. I am a God-fearing woman, His choice. I can take customer’s problems or outright ugliness from them. I do a very good job where I am at. I am a team player and expect the same from others.

I have talked to my boss about this and she said it should not be happening. I always straighten when ever the time is available. I always watch for customers at the checkout while I am doing that. We all know how we as Christians treat others with kindness always.

This is the fourth or so incident with an employee embarrassing me in front of a customer. I was folding tee shirts someone took out of the package. I went to put jeans up and was coming back. Then I hear myself being paged overhead. So I go back to the checkout. The person says to me what is this, in front of the customer. She knew what it was. She could have put it aside and when I got back I would fix it. Anyway I nicely confronted her afterward and asked her not to correct me in front of people. She said I was snotty to her. I was not. I said if I seemed upset it was in response to her treating me wrongly. She is not a manager.

This is a very busy time of year and we need to be extra supportive of each other. I told this girl, we had a discussion already about this with the manager. She said oh really. Anyway I am sure she will tell on me. I don’t care. I did nothing wrong. I have P.T.S.D. When someone attacks my person, it’s boom, I am hurt. I don’t get over it easy either. I am glad it was the end of the day.

If it’s about the Lord, or being busy working, no problem. I am giving my notice tomorrow. It will be my last day, no two weeks notice. It will be on the spot. I will work my shift tomorrow and and it’s over. I would rather give blood plasma and work for the Lord anyway. This job has took me away from my volunteer work. I guess I have to realize I am never going to control P.T.S.D. I have been bullied all my life and I just don’t need to take it from another person and I can walk away. If I am at a job I can’t. If it was taking the sword for Jesus, I am ready. I am ready everyday.

I love you Lord, with all my soul, my heart, my mind and strength. I just am weak in this point. I have tried very hard but, every job ends the same way.

 

 

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