An eventful life trusting Christ

Still life here goes on. Many blessings since the onset of my bipolar 1 illness. In 2010, I left Lebanon very ill. I left my daughter behind at fourteen and my husband of sixteen years. You see, I was very ill and they did not know how to help me. It was even more exasperated by, my doctor and a pharmacist, not being attentive enough on the drug doses. I was getting invega cut in half. It is not a pill that is scored so I was getting all the time release medication at once. This was extremely a bad time. Just a brief summary of how I was mismanaged. I also got toxic on lithium from weight loss.

I came back to the USA, a totally and completely broken person. Nothing else to do but die. In that despair, I cried Lord please help me. I believe fully in predestination. It was not of me or anything I could ever do. It was God knowing the time for me to be born again, saved. This life began again but, I was a child of God now. All the things from the past were no longer who I was. A way was needed to bring me to a glorifying Him, way to live. I met people at a center for mental illness and physical disabilities. I stayed going for several months. I overheard employees talking about Christians, “Why do they always have to talk about God?” If some one asks you anything about God, you will share the message of Jesus Christ Our Savior, God and Holy Spirit. Needless to say I left. I  got a job in a residential care home, screwed that up and was quite devastated again. My dad had died in 2012 of pancreatic cancer right before that. I also became a Hospice volunteer during that time. I was working at Penney’s next, and my brother was diagnosed with pancreatic cancer and went to the Lord August of 2014. I lived with him until then. What faith he had. What wonderful direction he gave me in the truth, that Christ died for the elect. Not everyone saying Lord, Lord or saying a prayer is a born again Christian. If you are a Christian you show the light of Christ in you. You preach the Word, His word. You live a life that honors Him.

To the point of all this is to say. I made it through but, thank you Lord for carrying me, loving me, giving me a new life in you. Looking back I would never believe what was in store for my destructed family. After years of complete anger and disgust, and hateful words from them, slowly we came closer. My daughter has come to see me twice in the USA. She is a sophomore in college, doing very well. She is involved in many things and I know with the Lord, she will do His work. I also have continued in the home health care field and in volunteering.

In this past July, my ex-husband by divorce only, became very ill. I never wanted to divorce him but, pressure from family you know, money, inheritance, duh. Anyway he has PKD, poly cystic kidney disease. He had diverticulitis that needed surgery and a colostomy. He made it through and was back in the hospital with infection that would not stop. All this time many prayers were being said for him. Finally, I had to go there. They could not stop the infection that spread to his one kidney. He also has been on dialysis for six years. I got a lot of time to witness to him. He could have a died. I told him that he needed to trust God in everything. Later I told him to trust and give thanks in everything. He had made it through. They had to remove one of his kidneys because the infection had spread there. I stayed two months and came back.

This past two weeks, he has been back in the hospital with infection from the reversal of the colostomy. Another fifteen days finally beat that with a drain tube. The doctor may have poked his celiac nerve. He could not walk without extreme pain. Prayers, and more prayers. He did not have a permanent injury. Oh, and I forgot, his dad got in a car wreck while he was in there. He fractured his leg and totaled his car. They were in the same hospital room. No more driving for him at eighty-two.

So where is God? He is there whenever you call His name. Does he answer your prayers all at once? No way, maybe not all or the way you want. For me, all was answered for my family to be restored. It took six years. Whatever happens I trust. Whatever comes we persevere. When we die, it is absent from here and present with the Lord. Amen, Lord come for us.

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We pray others will know God’s Grace.

It is not by us they come to know the truth. That will never stop us from sharing the truth. How many times do we hear the Bible was written by men? How many times do we hear, it is just a fairy tale? We can’t count. We are sad that many will never know the truth. He knows who are His and who are not. We know many in our families are in religious cults,

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Who can break that person from it, Only God. Keep praying and witnessing of the truth, no matter.

How many times do we hear I am a good person? Too many.

Romans 3:10-18

10As it is written, There is none righteous, no, not one:

11There is none that understandeth, there is none that seeketh after God.

12They are all gone out of the way, they are together become unprofitable; there is none that doeth good, no, not one.

13Their throat is an open sepulchre; with their tongues they have used deceit; the poison of asps is under their lips:

14Whose mouth is full of cursing and bitterness:

15Their feet are swift to shed blood:

16Destruction and misery are in their ways:

17And the way of peace have they not known:

18There is no fear of God before their eyes.

 

All true Christians are praying you will come to know the only Savior Jesus Christ, The truth, the way the life. In no other is there salvation.

Acts 4:10 – 4:13

10 Be it known unto you all, and to all the people of Israel, that by the name of Jesus Christ of Nazareth, whom ye crucified, whom God raised from the dead, [even] by him doth this man stand here before you whole.

11 This is the stone which was set at nought of you builders, which is become the head of the corner.

12 Neither is there salvation in any other: for there is none other name under heaven given among men, whereby we must be saved.

Why do we do what we do as Christians?

We as born again Christians, are being sanctified by God as we grow in our knowledge because of His grace only. I mentioned today at bible study that we cannot know most times if we have with the Lord helped to plant a seed that leads to saving grace. So every opportunity needs to be taken to spread the good news of His Grace through the sacrifice of Jesus, His only begotten Son who died for those who will believe.

Knowing your Gifts from God

  • As we are growing as Christians, God reveals to us our gifts through the Holy Spirit. Mine is helping others anyway I can. I feel so blessed to be made that way. Everyday I have joy knowing I am doing what I was meant to do.

I have been involved in many different areas of being a disciple of Christ. All of us need to know where we can let God’s light shine through us. Just our changed lives are a testimony to His Saving grace. The past five years as a born again Christian were of course full of  trials. Since we trust him in everything we don’t go to pieces and we learn how to overcome those trials and learn to endure.

I had a big one not to long ago. It messed with my medications. I needed to get refills and had to see the doctor first. I should have remembered myself to take care of that but, I forgot again… So in error by both the doctor and pharmacy, I was not given pills until my visit. I was only off one, but what a trial.. Anxiety ridden with highs and the lows. I never want to feel that way again. I felt like I was crying wolf to my Aunt but, I truly needed her help. Needless to say I got straightened out in a few days of being back on the one. This was also a wow moment. When I went to get it refilled, they had a refill still in my file. Yikes, I thought I would lose it. Everyone was retrained to look at all the screens. Praise to my Lord and Savior Jesus Christ, I persevered.

My mission to do my job went on. I had one client that I was working too many hours for as a bipolar. Overwhelmed I believe the Lord was telling me to stop. Sadly, I did but I still regret I could not help her to know Christ and change her life. It is not us that can do that, only God can.

So as other big trials come we know as Christians He will fulfill His purpose in those trials. My mind fights me at times. When somethings hurt too bad, I can’t go back. I forgive them but, It becomes sadly a part of my red buttons for P.T.S.D. Then we think about all the pain and suffering our Lord, Jesus took upon Himself for our sins to redeem a people all His own. We can never surpass His sacrifices for us.

Thank You Lord for Your Mercy.

I have trust in You always.

And what about my sisters and brothers in Christ? They were there praying for me.

 

What’s expected next.

Christians will tell you all prophesies except the second coming of our Lord have come to pass. Before every knee bows, you will witness more terrible disasters you could ever even think of. The seven years of these times of terror are around the corner. This Christmas season look past the commercial Christmas. Our church saw little children presenting the true reason for Christmas. Amazing voices glorifying God.

I thought to myself, how many people know or even want to truly know Christ our King. It’s not a fairy tale people. It is the true word of God written down by men inspired by God himself. Stop saying the Bible is not all true. If you say that you are calling God a liar. If you say you are without sin, you are calling God a liar. If you say, I am a good person, and I think I will go to heaven on my own merits because I don’t hurt anyone, or I do good deeds for others that  look good, I am calling God a liar.

Here is what God says about all of us who say I am good enough.

Romans 3:10-18

There is none righteous, no not one; There is none who understands; Eccl 7:20

There is none who seeks after God.

They have all turned aside; They have together become unprofitable; There is none who does good, no not one.”

Their throat is an open tomb; With their tongues they have practiced deceit”, Ps 5:

The poison of asps is under their lips”. Ps 140:3

Whose mouth is full of cursing and bitterness.” Ps 10:7

Their feet are swift to shed blood; destruction and misery are in their ways;

And the way of peace they have not known.” Isaiah 59:7, 8

There is no fear of God before their eyes.” Ps 36-1

I know that was me before He gave me grace through faith. Take the time to know your Savior Christ Jesus, Our Father, the Son and Holy Spirit within us. Don’t be mislead in this time of deceivers, those denying Christ. You can give them all your money. You can see how they are immensely rich on your money.  Why are they living their best life now? Because their eternity will be the worst life.

Read the parable of the Rich man and Lazarus. Luke 16:17-31.  I pray you understand these things God reveals unto His chosen. Don’t be eternally separated from God, heed His warnings through all true Christians taught by His true Word, the Bible. If you can,  let Him reveal the truth. And you will no longer be calling Him a liar.

May God bless you according to His will for your life. He knows your gifts to give others, in hopes and prayers they will see and believe as you will.

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Prayer is not always answered when and how we want.

Years for this and maybe days for that. When we pray in faith we know the Lord hears us and knows what we have need of. He is faithful to answer those prayers.

16 Therefore we do not lose heart. Even though our outward man is perishing, yet the inward man is being renewed day by day. 17 For our light affliction, which is but for a moment, is working for us a far more exceeding and eternal weight of glory, 18 while we do not look at the things which are seen, but at the things which are not seen. For the things which are seen are temporary, but the things which are not seen are eternal.

Walking in the Spirit

16 I say then: Walk in the Spirit, and you shall not fulfill the lust of the flesh.17 For the flesh lusts against the Spirit, and the Spirit against the flesh; and these are contrary to one another, so that you do not do the things that you wish. 18 But if you are led by the Spirit, you are not under the law.

19 Now the works of the flesh are evident, which are: adultery,[c] fornication, uncleanness, lewdness, 20 idolatry, sorcery, hatred, contentions, jealousies, outbursts of wrath, selfish ambitions, dissensions, heresies, 21 envy, murders,[d] drunkenness, revelries, and the like; of which I tell you beforehand, just as I also told you in time past, that those who practice such things will not inherit the kingdom of God.

22 But the fruit of the Spirit is love, joy, peace, longsuffering, kindness, goodness, faithfulness, 23 gentleness, self-control. Against such there is no law. 24 And those who are Christ’s have crucified the flesh with its passions and desires. 25 If we live in the Spirit, let us also walk in the Spirit. 26 Let us not become conceited, provoking one another, envying one another.

Faith though amazing grace. I have it do you? I had my thoughts and dreams and prayers of future wants and needs. Throughout four years He sustained me gave me strength in my weaknesses. I think back and know He was carrying me. I grew in faith and wisdom and am living this temporary life with Him. Amazingly I sat in church with my arm around my daughter on Easter. A beautiful woman she has become. She doesn’t know the truth of Christ yet. I know that the Lord will have His purpose in her. She is returning tomorrow to Lebanon and I know I will see her again here or in heaven.

So praise Him more and do His will. We will fail at times and yet know we have forgiveness. In everything give thanks. Amen and Amen!

P.S. Lena I meant to share this with you before now. It is so big and I have been so busy. See you soon to catch up.

Committed, are You?

I am stressing the importance of total committed faith in the Lord. I attend a small church. We need more involvement from our members. When Christ is your Savior it is very important to be a light that shows others; I am not just attending church on Sunday only. Most of us have a prayer night or bible study night to attend. Sad to say mostly the same members are involved in Awana, youth group and prayer group. Don’t get me wrong this is not the case with all our Christian churches.

Some older people would like to come but, we should offer if possible to bring them. Maybe they cannot come, if they are ill or shut ins. Maybe they are parents working late or they just need to realize how important this is for their children. We can make many excuses. Every week buses go and pick up youth and children who can meet at a central location.

This is not about you only.This about our children’s generation. Who is going to help them to know the Lord as their Savior? What will they pass on to the next generation and so on? It’s a parent that is faithful to the Lord’s plan that will influence them. If we don’t tell them will they every know about anything but, this fallen world. There is a heaven and a hell. You are their example. We will all stand accountable on that day of judgement, every one of us… Make a difference get involved in your church. Remember that is how the truth that Christ is the only way to heaven gets passed down from generation to generation. Be committed to Christ’s our Lord’s plan today.

God Bless!