Prayers for needs for all and Blessings that come..

I find myself today praying for others and being prayed for praying for them. The Lord lives through us as we grow more and more in His strength. Some are issues with illness of a family member and a dear friend. Another blessing for another family member for a good doctor visit. When we are hurting or in need, we become one with the Lord, comforters. We cannot do it alone, Christians are a body of one church in Christ Jesus.

We know as Christians whatever happens is according to His will. We trust and praise Him in our prayers. We pray for needs for others, and ourselves to remain obedient servants. He will answer according to His will, not ours.

So come before the Lord Jesus today, on bended knees before His cross where He died for you. Trust Him with all you are. When you leave here, it is with your soul only. The rest means nothing. He sees to it that we have what we need. So you can be dragging all the riches in the world down through the wide gate and that evil soul will perish, or you can be at peace knowing your Lord Jesus, God the Father, and the Holy Spirit who dwells within you will be awaiting you. The gate is narrow unto life, with an immortal, glorified soul and body and treasure beyond all we could ever imagine in heaven. (Matthew 7:13-14; Matthew 6:19-21)

Are you striving for that narrow gate? Test yourself. Do you believe Jesus Christ was crucified, died on the cross, and rose from the dead and ascended into heaven to right hand of God the Father? Jesus’s death is a complete propitiation (substitution) for remission of our sins, past, present and future. (Romans 3:25; Romans 6; Hebrews 2:17; 1 John 2:2; 1 John 4:10) He died for all that God the Father will draw to Him (Jesus). Jesus will lose none and will raise us up on that last day. We were lost sheep, many will remain lost sheep, cast off forever. The angels rejoice in heaven over one sheep that is found. I pray you are His sheep because all His sheep hear His voice and will follow no one else. (false gods, god mockers, false teachers). (Jude 18:16-19; Matthew 7:15-23; Matthew 24:23-26)

God is the I AM. Always was, always is and always will be forever into eternity. John 8:54-59)  By Faith we understand. (Hebrews 11)

The Father, The Son and The Holy Spirit!

All things work together for good to those who Love God!!!

Even in our little old town there is destruction. We had our finale of our vacation bible school in our church without electricity. The word of Lord was unquenchable. The church was still full with some children and families unable to be there. It was very exciting seeing all these children and what they took home to remember forever. We had several come to salvation. They strove to learn bible verses. Some accomplished bigger studying. The New Testament books in order backwards and forward. They could say all the names of the brothers of Joseph. Some were even missionaries bringing other children. One brought four friends and was missionary of 2013 excelling the last day over two others that brought three each, amazing.

Joseph was the brother that Jacob showed the most love to. The other ten step-brothers, wanted to kill him but, instead sold into him into slavery. His other brother was Benjamin who was three at the time of Joseph’s supposed death. Joseph became second over Pharaoh in his kingdom in Egypt. He was the Lord’s and the Lord was with him, to prosper him according to His purpose. Joseph’s whole family was eventually brought to Egypt and saved from the seven-year plague. Joseph told his brothers what they meant for evil the Lord used for good. You can read Joseph’s story in (Genesis 37:1-36; Genesis chapters: 39-50), a very amazing true story, as all the bible is God’s perfect word written down by men inspired by Him.

The bible verse was (Romans 8:28). The children learned it over the week and what it meant for their lives. Because God has a purpose for all of our lives. The verse reads: (All things work together for good to those who love God, who are the called according to His purpose). He compared the evils done to Joseph to the similar and worse things that happened to Jesus. Because what the devil and his children, the High Priest, Pharisees and Sadducees, Pilate, Herod and sinners meant for evil the Lord God, used for good. His only begotten Son, Jesus Christ, took all of our sins upon Him to save His chosen according to His purpose.

Are you one of His chosen?

I felt a bit sad and selfish at the end because I had no children of my own hearing the truths presented. I was by myself and left soon after. I look at other families and see their togetherness and love and feel the hurt at my loss of my family. Romans 8-28 is one of my favorite verses. This is how the devil works. He wants me to feel alone, unimportant, because I am not a family and to stop me from going to my church. I know if I missed a few weeks, My Pastor and church family would contact me and not forget me and I would go back as I once did before. We have a true loving relationship because we truly are Christians that love our neighbors as God loves us, unconditionally. Pastor once told me I don’t feel uncomfortable if you cry here. You are not the first or will be the last. We are truly a church family. I am one without that family unit, but a member forever of God’s family, an adopted daughter, chosen according to His purpose for me…Amen!

As Christians, discernment comes from studying God’s Word.

There are and will be more and more twisted doctrines of scripture as we come to the latter days. People taking things out of context, having the scripture mean what they want it to say. That’s why you must read and study yourself. We read true Christian commentaries to compare and inspire us with the Holy Spirit to the truth. We listen to true Christian Pastors and to the spiritually mature believer who is equipped in sound doctrine for guidance. I know in my heart, mind and His Holy Spirit when I hear something not right.

We are to contend for the truth, not be tossed to and fro and carried about with every wind of doctrine, by trickery of men, in cunning craftiness of deceitful plotting, but speaking the truth in love, may grow up in all things into Him who is the head–Christ–from whom the whole body is knit together by what every joint supplies, according to the effective working by which every part does its share, causes growth of the body for the edifying of itself in love. Ephesians 4:14; for context of this verse read all of Ephesians 4.

All believers are completely submissive to the Lord Jesus Christ and must do their share. Godly church growth results from every member of the body fully using his spiritual gift, in submission to the Holy Spirit and in cooperation with other believers.

1 Timothy 4:1-5; 1 Timothy 1:10; 2 Timothy 4:3; Hebrews 13:9 are other verses telling us to contend for doctrinal truths.

Someone said to me that everyone’s name is written in the Book of Life until they reject God. Does God use an eraser? No, He predestined, chose, called us to be His through Jesus Christ. It is called election. The Book of Life was complete before eternity past. Only God can convert the human soul. We can of ourselves only spread the Word to all He has come through our daily lives. We do not know His chosen, only He does know a man’s heart and mind. His will for us is to learn from His word and do what he wills without adding our own interpretations. That is why staying in the word and studying is of the utmost importance to all who do come to Him. Many people, even evangelicals do not like the doctrine of election. They deem it unfair. How is man superior to God? He is sovereign and we are just vessels for His glory or destruction. All deserving destruction since the fall of Adam and Eve in the garden. I do not know the mind of God but, I am still learning what he says in His word and from Godly men thoroughly equipped in sound doctrine.

You can go to many sites to get commentaries from Christian preachers past and present and your own pastor. A good site I found is

It even answered my question on Revelation 22:18-19, being used out of context also. God does not take any names out of the Book of life. These are unbelievers warned not to distort the word. Their names were never written in the The Book of Life because they are fore-known by God as false prophets. Jude warns about these deceivers, wolves in sheep’s clothing. So you must repent your sins and give your life to Jesus Christ, or you will be lead by these deceivers because you do not have a personal relationship to understand His Word, His Will, His Sovereignty. God is the Creator of all you see. Jesus is His only begotten Son, God incarnate, who took our place for all of our sins and died a horrible death and was resurrected and ascended to heaven. Jesus did what the Father willed to bring all that will come to Jesus. You cannot have the Father without the Son, or the Son without the Father. John 6:44-45

Can you deny that? Then go your own way to destruction, because you did not ask for forgiveness and you will have no excuse at the final judgement.

Have faith in times of trouble.

As Christians because of God’s mercy we are justified by faith. I just keep remembering He says trust me, stop trying to make things happen my way. It never works. So now I wake up every day and see what He has in store for me. I do of course, fail at times in trying to do it my way. The end result when He wills your prayer is answered.

And whatever things you ask in prayer, believing, you will receive.
Matthew 21:22

Therefore having been justified by faith, we have peace with God through our Lord Jesus Christ, through whom we have access by faith into this grace in which we stand, and rejoice in hope of the glory of God. And not only that, but we also glory in tribulations, knowing that tribulation produces perseverance; and perseverance, character; and character, hope.
Now hope does not disappoint, because the love of God has been poured out in our hearts by the Holy Spirit who was given to us.

Romans 5:1-5

People don’t want to hear the truth.

If they hear the truth and reject it, it is because they like the dark (satan) better than the light (Jesus). They get all righteous because they think they are doing just fine on their own. They believe going to church and being a good enough person will get you into heaven. The hard truth is the only way into heaven is if God has mercy on who He wills to have mercy. I believe (know) the bible tells us the complete truth. That who He calls, by no merit of their own will come to Jesus. If you believe with your whole heart, soul, mind, and strength and repent your sinfulness (all of us, not one of us does not have a sinful nature).

You want free will you got it. He doesn’t force you to realize you have a conscience that discerns good and evil and knows He is God. That is not enough. You must fear and believe He is the One and Only Almighty God. Who gave His Only Begotten Son to the world to defeat death, sin, hate, and all the rest of the abominations He hates. Be a proud man until He comes back. Go ahead turn away. On the last day, we will see him (Jesus) come back for us as He promised. You won’t be able to withstand the fire and brimstone. Read Revelations, even as an unbeliever you can get the gist of what it will be like. I read it at a younger age but, you know it was not His time for me to come. It took longer misery to break my heart and cry out. The correct use of, ” O My God, help me.” He did and I will always be with Him. Nothing in this world is more important than God. If you don’t have Him you will lose your life at one point by death or when He comes, for sure and forever. You will know then that you turned away and went your own way. I fear God and His judgement. Do you? Probably not if you don’t have a personal relationship with Him. So fear now or forever suffer the consequences of eternal fire. Where the worm never dies and you suffer away from God for eternity. (Mark 9:44)  I don’t know how many are hearing God. I know that is true around me for the most part. As a good a faithful servant I will not give up, ever.

So wait, and wait or ask now, you never know if He is at the door of your heart until you do ask. If not He will say to you go away forever.

Then He will also say to those on his left hand, ‘Depart from Me, you cursed, into the fire prepared for the devil and his angels:  (Matthew:41-46; Mark 9:44-49; Luke 16:23,24; 2 Thessalonians 1:9, Revelation 14:10,11) You will wish you had read His word, and repented but, alas all to late.

Jesus said, “I am the truth, and the life. No one comes to the Father except through Me. If you had known Me, you would have known My Father also;  and from now on you know Him and have seen Him. John 14:6,7

This is in response to Thomas saying to Jesus, “Lord we do not know where you are going, and how can we know the way?” John 14:5

We all know the way through the bible. Go on with your life have your free will to believe whatever. Someday, the last day, when it’s to late You will know.

We can’t know God’s complete plan for us.

It’s a trial and error sort of thing for me. I know God is not  going to just drop in my lap what he wants me to do. I do know that one part of his passion and love for me is being fulfilled. I can’t stay in the blame game for myself to why things happen the way they do. I can only move forward with what this day will bring. I trust him. I wish I still had the job I had. I could have still had it. I just could not take the presumptions about me from others (unbelievers) I should have been able to stand fast take my lumps and continue because I loved what I did. I just really believe that people can truly misinterpret and  will hurt you and they don’t even know you. They judge. They don’t know I have P.T.S.D and bipolar1. If they had I hope they would have backed off. All I was trying to do was calm my girly girly as I always can and have. Instead because of the shame I quit. The shame of it all on my record for a year.

All I know is that his hand is holding mine. He feels my pain. His pain and suffering I can never even come close to. He died for us sinful lost people. He chose who he wanted to know him personally and through him we know the Father,  (Abba). How comforting that is? His Holy Spirit is in me. It is okay for me to still break and cry and feel lost. After all the trials we go through make us cling to him all the more.

Today is a new day. I just finished my group therapy. It always helps. I believe this form of therapy is the best for me. I complained (grumbled) a while back about it. I do need it. It is other beautiful ladies with their own trying times us helping each other.

I do have a job interview today for part-time position. I realized with my illness I can’t work full-time. Besides it takes away from my volunteer work. I will not have that happen. So the Lord as always has me lean on him. He is sovereign over my life in all this life here and forever.

I am A born again creature in Jesus Christ, growing in his spirit daily.

Trust him, he is always there. Through the bad and good. I know it, you know but, sometimes we want to get lost in the pain AGAIN.

I always have the Lord to hold me.

I am having a very tough time now with my illness. I thought I was having a relapse and needed to be hospitalized. I tried to get to my therapist and she was out. I was crying and could not stop. I called my brother and he got me help. It took about and hour and was determined I had deep sadness and let it out. I have had several setbacks with my job and my family. I know I can’t have my family back but, I keep that hope alive in my heart. I know with the Lord anything is possible. So those tears came out in sheets ripped out of my broken heart. I think working too much, even though I loved the work, finally overwhelmed me. It was copacetic for me and was derailed thanks to my illness. I have to again take it slow and find something different the Lord has for me. I tried to concentrate on scripture and sermons yesterday. My mind just kept having racing thoughts, the what ifs, could it have been done in this way? Why didn’t I go back to my family even though I know it would not have worked? Why does a daughter, mother relationship have to end? Why can’t people help us cope too? Don’t they know that the mentally ill sometimes slip more than others? If they even think about that. I think about the healing miracles of the Lord in the Bible. Do I have one of those demons inside me? People say no that a child of Christ cannot. I just think I am being tormented with what he can use on me that old devil of old. My Lord is helping with might. I just hold that verse in Revelations 21:4, near my heart. No more death, nor sorrow, nor crying. There shall be no more pain, for all the former things have passed away. True and perfect promise from Our God Almighty.

My brother said we have had a hard year. Our dad died, job stuff, family estrangement, a big pileup upon me. I was listening to comforting Christian music, the words soothed me. I have been crocheting again to help. My mom made me promise to come to her if I feel that down. She says I help her she’ll help me, good combo. My brother said he would talk to me when I need it. God Bless him for being there. His wife is in the hospital with a kidney stone, severe pain, and they can’t get her a-fib to stabilize. All this and he took time for me. I felt guilty, my crash at a bad time for them. Well I have to see the crisis counselor today, same one from 2010. I made my mind up I won’t be back on Medicaid. I have good care where I go weekly to group. There is such a stigma about mental illness, but degeneration has produced what is. Man’s fall from obedience to the Lord and a few will find their way back. Matthew 7:13-14.  I am in that few, that I can be sure of. I am striving as the Holy Spirit leads me, our helper. Never mind being a doubter too at times. I know it happens to us all. Anyway if I talk too much about me, this is my journal to stability. I don’t want pity. I want prayer for we must pray for and support our brothers and sisters in Christ around the world and those that don’t know him and are deceived. Anyway my  personal thoughts for the start of just today. Tomorrow will take care of itself. I need to hold unto that. All that is going on in this awful world and I am just one little pea out of the pod that does not want to be here or belong here…We long for the Day of The Lord.