What are you waiting for?

Lebanon truly was a beautiful country to me. I spent from 1998 until 2007 going back and forth in summer. Of course there are many areas all over never repaired from the fifteen year civil war and there are places you just don’t go. I lived there for two and half years. My family is still there. I am concerned about them due to all the unrest going on. Three of my family members have to drive to Beirut three times a week for dialysis due to polycystic kidney disease (including my husband, father-in-law and Aunt). I am sure now with all the information out on attempted bombings there, it hard to get to the hospital with all the security. Recently they arrested over one-hundred people in Hamra, (a suburb of Beirut) trying to catch terrorists before they complete their car bombings and whatever else is planned. There have always been attempted assassinations there. When I lived there I did not know all that was going on. I do not speak Arabic. I was in the dark mostly. I talked to my husband last night. He said it is not as bad as the news says. I keep up with the news on Naharnet (a Lebanese news site) and they have a different take.

I know God, has everything under control and His purpose will be done. I have witnessed of Jesus to my family. My husband told me he wants nothing to do with my God. They attend the Eastern Orthodox church, similar to Catholicism. The difference is they allow their priests to marry. It is the same type of ritualistic mass performed. When attending and not knowing Arabic, I just mimicked everyone else. I am still married. I would not reunite with him for God tells us do not be unevenly yoked. What happened to me with my mental illness caused me to leave. I can live apart from him. I will serve the Lord only and others. I do not want to divorce because it would alienate my daughter more. She was fourteen when I had to leave for help here and will be eighteen this October. I have missed out so much. What can I do, nothing? She is a good student with honor roll grades. She wants to become either an anesthesiologist or a kidney doctor (Nephrologist). I don’t think she would make much money if she stayed there. The wages are low. I am not sure what doctors make or the other. She mentioned she wants to study in France. Does she have time? Only God knows but, most Christians believe the tribulation is not far off. We do not know the date or time, only God does.

The Lord in his word has warned of the things that will be happening before His second coming. We as Christians see them all for he told in advance, in His word. More and more wars and failing economies, natural disasters, people killing their own, etc. and don’t blame God He does no evil, satan does and people who worship him. Israel, God’s chosen people of promise, Abraham, Issac, Jacob and God’s elect throughout generations, are persecuted, hated by almost all countries with the U.S. now starting to follow.

They are protecting themselves from people who send rockets and grow up hating them. Many are willing to blow themselves up to kill a Jew. Yet, they say the Jews are the problem. The Lord promises whoever curses the Jews are cursed. We have to live until He returns doing His work and spreading the Truth. My family used to read my blog, but I revealed I knew they were. I believe the Lord knows I did all He had me do to witness to them. They have not read it since that time. So if you are reading this you can see what rejection of Jesus Christ looks like. He told me my religion would never allow us to reunite. God’s will is above all, although men think in their foolish minds it is not. His purpose is that unworthy humans repent and believe He is their Lord, God, and Savior. Many will not and cannot accept this. His elect, He chose from eternity past, who are His adopted children. The perfect offering to allow them to know God, is His only Begotten Son, Jesus Christ, the God-Man. If you are His chosen, you will know the truth. Why not let it be now? My mother, (a devoted Catholic), asked me, what if I am wrong? The truth has set me free and I know along with other true Christians, that my heart is transformed. It is a sad thing to come face to face with the Lord in judgment with all your sins. Come to the Lord, dedicate your life to Him. Everything, depends on that truth. If you are not wanting to know the truth, you have made your choice. He has instilled in all men, the knowledge that He is God and we must repent and give all of ourselves to Him, for He knows all man’s hearts. So do not think you can hide anything from Him. He knows all.

God Bless,

Pray it is the Lord’s will to save your soul and transform your heart.

Follow the Lord and live!

My daughter’s seventeen birthday is coming up this month. It has been almost three years since I saw her and my family. I hope and pray someday things will be different. It has nothing to do with me. It is up to the Lord. Still my heart yearns for those times we spent together when love of me was assured. Then I was diagnosed with my illnesses. I wish they could see me now. I am my old self and have been for a long time. I have had issues from time to time. Even normal people get taken off guard. Most of my problem is when people put me down personally. It can be also in anxious situations. I am working in retail. I need to keep cool for the Friday after Thanksgiving. Anyway it’s one person at a time. I can’t do anymore than that.

So I will trust in the Lord for my strength and take my meds. I realize I can’t go without them until He comes, that’s okay. I am a creation of God, imperfect from the beginning. Christians understand what being transformed to His likeness means. (Romans 12:2; 2 Corinthians 3:18) He knows our hearts and minds and souls, and He loves all His children. Even the unrepentant ones. Peace and joy are what we have, even in our lonely times and trials. We call out to Him and He is there to guide us, every time and forgives us forever.

I have hope that I will see my family again. If not on this earth then in heaven. I don’t know if they know that but, I pray every day for the Lord to bring them to salvation. A change of heart, a deep love for others. A non-stop love for Our Lord Jesus Christ who died for us, rose from the dead and ascended into heaven. The four Gospels, all are written about His life. His preaching and miracles and calling of His apostles and disciples, His death and resurrection. We believe without seeing and we are blessed, because many will not see or hear.

And after eight days His disciples were again inside, and Thomas (doubting Thomas) with them. Jesus came the doors being shut, and stood in the midst, and said, “Peace to you!” Then He said to Thomas, “Reach your finger here, and look at my hands; and reach your hand here, and put it into My side. Do not be unbelieving.”

And Thomas answered and said to Him, “My Lord and My God!”

“Jesus said to him because you have seen Me, you have believed.”
Blessed are those who have not seen and yet have believed.”
And truly Jesus did many other signs in the presence of His disciples, which are not in this book; but these are written that you may believe that Jesus is the Christ, the Son of God, and believing you may have life in His name. (John 20:26-31)

You can read all about, The Resurrection of Christ in the Gospel of John, starting in chapter 20:1-31. (Matthew, 28:1-8; Mark 16:1-8; Luke 24:1-12). His appearing to His apostles in (Mark 16:14; Luke 36-43).

So for you who read this. As Christians, we hope and pray, you will read and see and believe. The gift of life is only in Jesus Christ, no other. “And he who does not take his cross and follow after Me is not worthy of Me. He who finds his life will lose it, and he who loses his life for My sake will find it.” (Matthew 10:38-39)

Jesus demands total commitment from His apostles-even unto physical death-and making this call a part of the message they were to proclaim to others. This same call to life-or-death devotion to Christ is repeated in (John 16:24; Mark 8:24; Luke 9:23, 14:27. For those who come to Christ with self-renouncing faith, there will be true and eternal life. (Matthew 10:39)  John MacArthur Bible study notes.

Are you ready to renounce self and come to Christ? He is ready for you to ask. Are you ready to do all He has for you to do? Take up your cross and follow Jesus.

Reminiscing, times with my daughter.

I have to tell this story. My daughter and I started traveling to Lebanon when she was thirteen months old. The first time we went as a family. All families know how hard it is initially to get a child used to traveling. She looked under the seat and saw feet but, became scared something else was under there. One time we had quite a layover and she was sleeping when boarding time came. In front of everyone, because she did not want to wake up, she threw a fit on the floor. I had lots to carry and she could walk then but, wouldn’t. A nice lady helped me with one of the bags, if I remember right. My daughter had her own bag that said, world traveler. Don’t get one, you end up trying to pull both and carry the kid and everything else. Another time we traveled through the Netherlands. Layovers there are eight to ten hours. She was playing in the kiddie area and some girl put the tail of her stuffed cat in her mouth. She was so upset. She always had this thing about kids playing with her toys and she would say, “Mom they’re going to drool on them.” She would watch them like a hawk and sure enough it would happen. We are talking when she was five or so and younger kids from rented flats in my in-laws building would visit or cousins. She was an only child until seven when her step-brother came to live with us. So she was spoiled. I admit it.

When my daughter was four years old, she went to her first summer camp in Lebanon. She was all excited when we visited and stayed the rest of the day. Her dad came later for a month’s vacation. Well, when he got there she started crying at the gate when we left her. She eventually got okay with it again. It was the first time she was away from us for a long period of time. She and I would travel every year in May, a month or so before my husband’s July vacation. We would return before school started. We went every single summer for ten years, before moving there in 2008, and she went to camp. They had all types of activities and she never said once I don’t want to go. The older she got the more fun she had.

Well, now my daughter is sixteen and she is a monitor of five to seven year-olds. I thank God for all the times we had together. I remember them with such joy. I think it is just wonderful that she is doing this and loving it. I am counting on God for his will in her life now. Only God converts the human soul. We are planters of seed (His Word), another waters (more of His Word). And God gives the increase (saves). (1 Corinthians 3:5-23)

The Lord, Jesus Christ is my shepherd. Who is yours?