Bipolar and stable. I don’t think of being that too much anymore.

It’s hard to believe I have been back living in the U.S. for 8 years November 10. We can never see what is in store for us as children of God (even before we are saved) now and in the future. All I know is He guides me even when I am lazy (a lot these last few months). I am pretty much retired at 62. I still work about 30 hours a month. I keep focused on Him daily but, I know I am lacking. I broke my ankle a month ago. All this past year I have been making excuses to not go to church. Yes I got called in some Sundays. Mostly it is my sleeping clock. It is totally off.  I don’t wake up til 1:00 P.M. after going to sleep at 5:00 A.M. What can I do? Sometimes I take two Tylenol pm. If that doesn’t do it two more, and and then some zzz stuff and I am still awake. I listened to the book of Revelation last night, yup the whole book. We will see what tonight brings. Since Obamacare you can’t get benzos (temazapam). It worked the best. I remember telling my doctor I have to sleep and can’t not sleep (racing mind, bipolarity). So he gave me that.

I am going on a trip to Lebanon in September. I am looking forward to it. I will see my daughter and my husband. I have not been back since 2016 when he was so sick. I praise God he made it. God did it. He saved him and my daughter also through all of these trials of our life so far. I am taking a friend with me. I hope she gets better before we go. She is seventy-eight, says it’s her last hurrah. She has M.S. and this past year things are declining. I am willing but, she has to get stronger. Her knee gives out (getting a brace). Plus she may have to keep a catheter. We can’t have her sick while she is gone three weeks with me. I have all the handicap services ordered. I am mostly worried about her coming back alone. I am staying a month longer. So pray for her (not saved yet) that all will be well.

I am just so awed by God’s awesomeness. He is our rock and salvation. I was supposed to take this trip in May but all kinds of chaos cancelled the whole shebang. We had driven to Cleveland with my animals. Got to the airport an hour before the flight and they said no we could not get our bags to the plane (45 mins needed) on time. I would have put up a big stink had I known I was on standby for every flight thereafter (never said one word we were standby). I found out after waiting til 12 P.M. that there was no room. I could have taken another flight or rented a car. My connecting flight was at 7 P.M. from JFK. I was surprising my daughter on Mother’s Day. We were flying back with her to Lebanon on the same flights. So some things just don’t mesh and prices skyrocketed (after I bought my tickets in March). On well what can you do (american airlines never again) they don’t even answer complaints, no compassion, forget any response at all. One thousand dollars more for September, instead of four thousand and I could not reschedule the other flight hoping I would make it the next day. Don’t buy super-savers ever. It all adds up to economy coach anyway.  Just a funny, our bags went to New York without us on the 12 P.M. flight. So I paid for that and they delivered them a day later, yahoo. I enjoyed writing this. I went through weeks of depression when it happened. Looking back He got us through. Okay Lord,  I am praying this time all goes well. I am counting on you to get us away or not. Giving praise anyway you know what you are doing.

God Bless

Romans 8:28

And we know all things work together for good to those who love God, to those who are the called according to His purpose.

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