My brother I miss you and where is my other brother?

My bro, my bro, I have said it many times since August. So it not out of sight, out of mind, Amen! I will think of him as I study. I will think of him in church, at the beach, always. I will think of him as he would be sad to see his twin hating his sister and his own family. It got so bad I had to walk away. I had to move out on my own, to get away from his disgust of me. I am weak. The Lord is strong.

We took our girl vacation this week to Myrtle Beach. It has been very nice, except for too much yapping from time to time in the car. My aunt and I have a pretty short toleration for my mom. She can’t change, only by the grace of God, Jesus and the Holy Spirit is that possible. I pray that happens but, it is God’s grace that turns a sinner to the light, to Him. Through Jesus Christ, we know the Father, and then the Holy Spirit dwells within us always. You can’t have one without the other.

I had to make some big decisions. God was with me and is as I move along this time in this world. I am not wanting to be here. We always strive to be with the Lord. Ultimately it is not our call. So I hang tight, hold unto Him and do what He has for me. I am out the other side of it for now. I am looking forward to working again and following His plan for me. It is already written by Him what will be. So really after you are His, (His forever) you will do His purpose. What I will do for others, not for me? He takes care of that part.

Slowly I am working back into things I loved to do before my brother was ill and has gone to sleep in the Lord. He is enjoying forever already. I have starting visiting those in need of care. I am loving the release time bible school once a month. Those kids are so excited about the Lord. I have other things I will do also. I like staying busy enjoying the rewards now from the Lord.

I can’t change relationships. They have to go His course, away from Him or to Him. I would love to see it happen in many cases, really a magnitude of cases. I can’t underestimate what our Almighty God can do. We can see no light in others, and then they start to shine with the knowledge of Him, His truth, why we are here. To realize by His will we are His and be obedient. Regardless of that, what is there, really? Eternal life with Him or eternal life with satan.  For nothing we do will ever make us worthy. We are fallen sinners after our own desires. I have done that most of my life. I did not have anything to look forward to. Now I can see  and  know the truth. You can be on your death-bed. You can be suffering so many ills, and horrible circumstances and yet you know, He is there. He is not a mean God. He did not bring evil upon us, He can do no evil. He is not the author of evil, the prince of darkness is. That serpent of old called the devil and satan, who deceives the whole world;  he was cast to the earth, and his angels were cast out with him. (Revelation 12:7-8)

So are we worried about this world, no? Is it going last this way forever, hardly? It is going to roll up like a scroll, yes? Yes, He tells us that in His word, the Bible. (Revelation 6:14;  Revelation 6) So should you fear God? Yes!

Jesus Teaches the Fear of God

“And I say to you, My friends, do not be afraid of those who kill the body, and after that have no more that they can do. But I will show you whom you should fear: Fear Him who, after He has killed, has power to cast into hell; yes, I say to you, fear Him! (Luke 12:4-5)

God Bless!

Having fun shopping, sitting on the beach, reading and above all else, Praising the Lord!!!

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6 thoughts on “My brother I miss you and where is my other brother?

  1. I know estrangement, and death Cheryl. With me its the reverse, as a mother who puts Jesus first, and at 75 with medical problems. I have estranged children …daughters supposedly saved, but, they don’t walk in Christ. Now one 10 miles away has cut contact with me. Cut me out because I guess I preached too much. She was named on my living will. I’m at a loss.. I don’t understand hate, but her father my 2nd husband, was an abuser too. So I’ve been there. My prayers for you with your mom. We can’t change people Cheryl, can we? Only Jesus can.

  2. Wow you sure do know. It is the most awful way for a family to be. We do know Jesus told us it would happen. So sad for them that do not want to hear the word through us. He is an awesome God. He gives us amazing strength. The more we draw close to Him, the more we feel His love. He will show His wrath upon them. All to late they will try to enter heaven. Amazing is His grace through faith. I have gotten over so much since coming back to the U.S. You have so many losses also. I am so blessed knowing you through our blogs. We have endured so much before and after my brother passed. Moving on is ever so sweet. We know our treasures are in heaven.

    • If you were closer to me (I’m in NH) I’d give you a hug. On the top bar of my blog is my testimony and losses. Fifteen yrs this month since (on Halloween) since I lost my bi-polar son to suicide..he’d be 34..I miss him. He always said my daughter here in NH & I would never get along. She just moved into a 113 yr old house that was my Greek mother in laws. Do you believe in spirits of abuse and all those generational curses being in a house like that, never prayed out? I do..for now she is like the Greek matriarch, my mother-in-law who died of Alzheimers. One day at a time. I also believe that God is still in charge, and that we reap what we sow, and He still is in charge of her. She was saved..once.. I have to let go and let him. God bless. We’ll make it ! In Jesus name.

  3. Thinking of you also, Lena. We have to do lunch again soon. Tomorrow we head home. It has been enjoyable. I have one more place to look at unique things. It is nine floors full. It is called the Gay Dolphin. See you soon!

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