Jesus is the Life and the Light.

It is not about me, ever. I had to come to terms again this week. We women are cackling hens. Yes, Lord that is the way we were made to annoy men. Being a Christian we really annoy. Mom and I left my brother in the hospital and came home last Thursday the 23rd. I feel like an outsider to my brother’s upcoming death. Lord, I know your will is being worked out. I pray my other brother taking care of him will know you. Just now I found out my brother is going to an alternative treatment center to see if they can help him as soon as he is well enough. If they can he will take treatment for six weeks in Arizona.

We had a big blow up last week and all of us lost it. It was coming. Even a past Director of behavior health can totally lose it. I was definitely off guard because I was trying not to stir up anything. It is all very hard for all of us. I was hurt and planned on never seeing my brother again. I prayed. I tried to forget. It really was hard, until. Don’t you ever feel like your Pastor is talking right to you? The Lord, just does His work through believers. He brought me to give it up. Be the one to apologise and I was by text. Believe me nothing was lost in the translation. He said he has already moved past it. That we all just needed a break. I told him, “I love you.” I didn’t get one back but, I know he does. After living away for twenty-three years how much can you really get to know someone again? It is hard because he has all the psychological advancement knowledge.

As I write my mom is out digging a path to the shed in almost zero degree weather. She wants to put this stuff in the shed that keeps the moisture out. She couldn’t find it until yesterday. She could have bought a new one but, didn’t. She is very frugal and does not have to be. She was almost done when I noticed. She is now sweeping snow off the sidewalk. I told her what are doing? It’s two degrees. She says, I am not cold.

I have tried witnessing to her many times. She says;  She has her religion and I have mine or can we just please not talk about this. I have told her about the end times. She says I won’t be here by then. That’s what I am saddened about. She thinks if she is not alive then all is okay. She does see the signs and tells me I think you are right at times.

I told her the dollar is going to be worth zilch when they crash it. The NWO will take over as planned from the beginning. People will just go along with it. All of us have been programmed through the media, tv, symbolism all our lives. What we see we are influenced to do. Only the Lord Jesus can save you. There are many (monarch slaves) when activated do the deeds they are programmed for. Killings in schools, etc. Celebrities try to get away from them and they take them out to show control or they ruin their credibility or career. A few may become Christ’s. They sell their souls for rock n roll and fame, all too true. If you don’t bow the knee to satan, you won’t get it. They have their comforts now. Just like the Parable of the Rich man and Lazarus. Don’t get me wrong not all rich people have money as their idol before God.  Ever hear of the 27 club of celebrities? They are sacrifices to show the power of what they can do. Many of them lost to addictions, that supposedly kill them…drugged up, being taken care by those who love them, their handlers.

Because many can’t see and never wanted to turn to God. The government is going to take care of you. Just not like you think. Not all souls will be lost in the seven-year tribulation prophesied by Daniel and other prophets. John, the last living apostle was exiled on the isle of Patmos for preaching Christ crucified.

The Revelation of Jesus Christ, which God gave him to show His servants-things which must shortly take place. And he sent and signified it by His Angel to His servant John, who bore witness to the word of God, and to the testimony of Jesus Christ, to all things that he saw. Blessed is he who reads and those who hear the prophecy, and keep those things which are written in it;  for the time is near. (Revelation 1:3)

I had to stop reading about the NWO because what can I do about it. I can make you aware it is here and has been planned from the beginning. I hope you are very fearful not of it, but of the wrath of God upon all unbelievers.

Remember God does not wish that any should perish. (2 Peter 3:9)

The more you know the Lord’s word, the more blessed you are. Do not be ashamed to confess Jesus Christ as your Savior unto death. He will confess you to the Father as His. (Romans 10:9-12) Many born-again Christians are today and dying once not twice.

Then Death and Hades were cast into the lake of fire. This is the second death. And anyone not found written in the Book of life was cast into the lake of fire. (Revelation 20:14)

God Bless!!!

We need prayer and more prayer through Our Lord, Jesus Christ.

We must as Christians pray without ceasing. Our prayers should be first focused on the growth of His church. No separation in prayer and studying keeps us strong. His word spills into us the more we read. We have the discernment needed to face everyday one at a time. If I didn’t have the Lord I would fall apart. He is our strength forever. Praising and worshiping Him in all His Glory and Honor and with repentance always.

I have been talking with my other brother about signs in the world. He is not interested. He says what ever happens, does. He is going to live his life without worrying about anything. I am still going to do as the Lord has us do, plant those seeds.

This as you may or may not know is a time of the upcoming sleep in Christ of my other brother to pancreatic terminal cancer. He is still fighting the good fight. He doesn’t see it but, we do. I held his hand today but, he said he is not into touchy-feely right now. So I will back off. He is dealing with a lot knowing his time here is quite limited, as the doctors say. He has had more improvement that will lead to going home from the hospital. He is already very self-sufficient. As we know, no man wants to be babied. When my dad died in 2012 of the same disease, he told us not to coddle him. So we will do as he wishes. We have to work on mom she wants to do this and is hearing it from him and us. Yesterday she got quite angry and said I am not saying another word. She got over it, oh, it took a while. I went and bought her lunch to break the ice. It worked.

So I am praying along with my church and other Christians and for the will of the Lord in reducing his pain. I have His promise.  “And all things, whatsoever ye shall ask in prayer, believing, you shall receive.” (Matthew 21:22); (Mark 11:24)

God bless everyone today in your prayers that you shall ask believing you shall receive. I pray for those who do not know Jesus. The Lord has mercy on whom He will have mercy. (Romans 9:14-16) Are you one who will have His Mercy?

Here I am Lord what shall I do?

My heart is breaking for my brother. Even as we are brethren, I am having a hard time. He is in a lot of pain. Of course, it is only three days post op. I am having a hard time with getting him to understand that God is still with him. He said where is he? I am in so much pain. I said he is in your heart, for him to pray. I was holding his hand and he dropped it. He is again doubting he is saved. I told him again about all the Lord has done through him. It is gonna be a while or maybe not without pain. I have no answer. I am now with unbelievers who cannot understand me at all. My sister had to go back home to work.

I get upset with my mom who is eighty-one. She freaks and she is hard to keep calm. Then I am not calm. I just took a pill. I have such anxiety from the whole day. Lord, please Lord if it be your will, help me and my brother and family. Please, give me the words to say to my brother. There is no one else but, me right now. My Pastor does not live here. My brother never found a church here he felt preached your true word. We both cannot sit and hear false doctrines. We don’t like wishy-washy. We like firm and stern. Your true word is that. I got introduced to the chaplain there and he did not want her to come in. I am sorry but, I was glad she didn’t.

I just want to be a comfort to my brother. I am going to have to leave and come back. I don’t want to. I have to take mom home. Then my other brother will stay. It is going to be mostly on him until he can take care of himself. I would not be able to do that myself right now or when he first comes home. 

What do you say to make it better? Are there any words? We were in a hotel for three nights. So maybe tonight I will cry and pour my heart out some more. Tomorrow mom is staying here at my brother’s house. It will be me and my other brother at the hospital. She has been here since New year’s day. It wasn’t really bad until the surgery. She needs a good break. I don’t want to leave here. I don’t want my brother dealing with it all either. So I am taking her home and coming back. She will be better help away than here and she will protest. Please, Lord, your will, will be done. I have only you to go to as I always know. In Christ’s name I pray.

You don’t know when illness will take you, do you?

My brother is terminal at 58 years old. Pancreatic cancer does not take it’s time. He is stage four. They rerouted the bile duct around the duodenum and that’s where multiple tumors are. His celiac artery has the tumors wrapped around it so the whipple procedure was not an option.

So I am writing to all non-believers that you must take knowing the Lord Jesus as your Savior, seriously. If you do say “I think I am going to heaven. I have been good enough.” No one is good enough. We all seek our own desires and sin constantly with abandon, without the Son of God, God the Father and the Holy Spirit. That is our nature since Adam fell from grace and disobeyed God, deceived by satan. We need to repent of all of our sins. If there is no repentance, there is no forgiveness from the Lord. Your eternity will be the lake of fire.

In Him was life, and the light of men. And the light shines in the darkness, and the darkness did not comprehend it. There was a man sent from God whose name was John. This man came for a witness, to bear witness of the Light, that all through him might believe. He was not the Light, but was sent to bear witness of the Light.

That was the true Light which gives light to every man coming into the world. He was in the world, and the world was made through Him, and the world did not know Him. He came to His own, and His own did not receive Him.

But as many as received Him, to them He gave the right to become children of God, to those who believe in His name;  who were born not of blood, nor of the will of the flesh, nor of the will of man, but of God. (John 3:6-12)

You can love this world and you are at enmity with God. Everyone will die according to His perfect will. From eternity past before the world was created, He knew us and who would believe and not. He and only He can make your heart ready. You must make that turn when He does that for you.

Even though I am grieving and will still, I know my brother will be absent from here and present with the Lord. I know this because I am a born again, saved Christian and he is also.

For as the Lord told  Nicodemus. “Most assuredly, I say to you, unless one is born of water and the Spirit, he cannot enter the kingdom of God. That which is born of the flesh is flesh, and that which is born of Spirit is spirit. ‘Do not marvel that I said you must be born again.’ The wind blows where it wishes, and you hear the sound of it, but cannot tell where it comes from and where it goes. So is everyone who is born of the Spirit.” (John 3:3-8)

My mind is telling me I want to go with him but, It is not my time so I will go on with the Lord’s work, in obedience. He has more for me to do. Through the Lord Jesus, if you can, come to Him now. He will make your heart ready. For by His grace we believe through faith. There is no other way.

After they witnessed the rich young ruler choose money over Him. “Jesus responded to His apostles when asked “Who can be saved?” He looked at them and said “With men it impossible, but not with God;  for with God all things are possible.”  (Mark 10:26-27); (Matthew 19:23:26); (Luke 18:24-27)

Everyone of us will face death. You must know before you do. To be sober, be vigilant; because your adversary the devil walks about like a roaring lion, seeking whom he may devour. (1 Peter 8)

If you don’t see the evilness in this world now. Hopefully you will when the final antichrist comes to take you with him to lake of fire. The evilness in this world is visible behind the scenes to those who educate themselves. The Illuminati, the Freemasons, the rich bankers are now blatant about their commitment to evil. Showing signs to each other in the public eye along with alliances with Hollywood celebrities who have sold their souls for money.

Resist him, steadfast in the faith, knowing that the same sufferings are experienced by your brotherhood in the world. But may the God of all grace, who called us to His eternal glory by Jesus Christ, after you have suffered a while, perfect, establish, strengthen, and settle you. To Him be the glory and dominion forever and ever. Amen (1 Peter 5:9-11)

You have all the access to the Lord you need in His Word, The Bible.

In trials we are strong. Because we know the truth of the Lord’s Word. We stay in it daily, studying and praying. He is there for us in everything. His word is perfect and true. I am only a believer, because he chose me, not because of anything I have done, but for His own purpose he had mercy on me. Because not one of us seeks after God, not one.

God Bless you! I hope and pray that by someone, be it a friend, a pastor, a bible teacher, that you are turned to follow and devote your life to Jesus Christ, Our Savior. He died on the cross for you. Let him help you take the step toward salvation forever in His name.

God Bless!

Lord I am overwhelmed.

I just need to put down in words what is happening. My brother is going to have the whipple procedure next Thursday. I think my bipolar, etc is in action. It is not out of control. Just writing this will help for the Lord knows my heart. I can’t pray in my mind without writing right now. I love you Jesus, My Lord, My God with all I have. I know everything will work out to your purpose. Yet I am worrying about things.

I feel better after talking to my other brother knowing he will be the caretaker for his twin, my brother. I know in my heart the Lord would not give me more than I could handle and He has done that already. My brother just so happened to retire December 30th, also a gift that is a blessing. He said he anticipated he would need to be the one. The Lord also in his perfect will is putting non-believers in my family together with believers.

I thank you Lord in all You have willed to be done, for You are Sovereign. The surgeon is 80% sure he will survive it. My brother will have at least two weeks in the hospital and four months recovery. I have read many testimonies of people who have had this surgery. In fact one of the girls who works where I do is a testimony. She has had the same operation.

I have my friends here, my church, and my brother who retired was a Director in the Behavior Health field.

So Lord it is in your hands, as everything is. I pray for your perfect will to be done. You know my heart, as you know all men’s hearts. Amen!

Therefore let that abide in you which you heard from the beginning. If what you heard from the beginning abides in you, you also will abide in the Son and the Father. And this is the promise that He has promised us—-Eternal life. (1 John 3:24-25)

Behold the manner of love the Father has bestowed on us, that we should be called children of God! Therefore the world does not know us, because it did not know Him. Beloved, now we are children of God;  and it is not known what we shall be, but we know we shall be like Him, for we shall see Him as He is.
And everyone who has this hope in Him purifies himself, just as He is pure. (1John 3:1-3)

Read (1 John) The First Epistle of John for the whole context.

Why can’t it be today?

I awake everyday,
and I am still here.
I know it’s His will,
but my heart still yearns
to be with Him.

We are in a world that is evil,
A world where He has us walk,
A world where we can share the good news.
Of His Love, Patience and Truth.
A world that does not want to hear.
A world that does not want to see.
Deep down they know,
He has always been here.
That He gave His life for us,
to cover our sins.

This life is not forever,
Your soul will be,
Forever in joy or,
Forever in despair.

His Word tells us so.
If you cannot understand it.
Just look around.
His creation shows you,
We did not just come to be.