I had fellowship today. I was so just needing to get out and do something. Even if it wasn’t the nicest day out. I have been feeling a bit of isolation again. The kind that is trying to keep me from being what the Lord wants me to be. Obstacles again, you can’t do this because of that. You are doing this for nothing. Oh, but I am not doing it for nothing. If you would only see. It is the Lord in control. I am just along for the ride. You see I will not stop his movement in my life. Why, I can’t. He called me, he is doing his work in me. For whenever he is ready for us we’ll meet him. People around us today don’t understand. It’s like getting a charity request in the mail. Some people will try to give a bit to as many as possible. Then there are those who gripe that someone gave their name to everyone. Just throw it away and stop complaining. No one has your arm twisted to give. Then there are Christians who can’t give enough. We just can’t stop wanting to spread the word and give the Lord’s help to all. It is not about ourselves. It is for him not us. If anyone can understand that we are all born sinners. That Christ died for the predestined sinners. Those who would and will repent their sins and realize that we can never earn anything. The offer is Grace to us from him his church (not a building those who believe and put their trust, lives, everything in him). He chooses to save who he wants to. From the beginning until the end. Those that he called, are sanctified and will be glorified when he returns at the Second Coming. Thank you for Grace Lord. Thank you for letting me see. I would never and can never be worthy. Only you the potter could say who is the clay for common use. You said we are the clay to be used for Honor of you. Worship and Glory to You Forever and ever. Amen Lord Jesus God Almighty
God has me onward and upward this week. I am giving thanks always in the trials and his goodness to guide me. I feel when I go astray a bit of something happens to straighten me out. I said last week was pretty bad at the time. Now I am taking it in stride, not dwelling. It’s over lessons learned. Focus yourself not on things of this world. Focus on your gifts you have to share from the Lord. I am so joyful to be doing something so awesome. Just being myself and giving of myself, listening mostly. Maybe no answer will be needed from me but, I will be a comfort in his word if asked. Just give me the opportunity and nothing is out of the question. I wonder how anyone can walk around and not notice something different about a Christian. Maybe say to themselves, “I want what she’s got”. Little do they know it is such a big gift of mercy free to all us lowly sinners. I know my eternal destination. What could get any better? Oh yes, being there forever. I feel unbundled some today. I was worrying too much about doctrine I don’t agree with others about. We will never agree on everything that is my interpretation. The lesson in all is brothers and sisters in Christ have respect but correct incorrect doctrine if possible. I can’t agree with some because I have been revealed the truth and won’t try to let it be sugar-coated to make the Word Of The Lord better tasting. We are shown the truth in the Bible. It is clear. Jesus says so in Rev 1 1-3 in talking about the churches. I feel these churches are comparable to todays churches. The Loveless Church, The Persecuted Church, The Compromising Church, The Corrupt Church, The Dead Church, and The Lukewarm Church. I don’t know if I am in the right church yet. Nothing is perfect except him. His Holy Spirit guides and protects us. What do we fear? The wrath upon the earth of those who never hear or see. We get over-earnest trying to pull those we can out of the fire. They think we are pushy, think we know it all. We don’t know it all but, what we do puts the fear of the Lord in us. We are doing what we are taught to do by his word and his spirit. He is in control because he called us. Yes, Lord I am ready to carry that cross forever. To die if I have to. The first death is not too much. The second death will be…………….He chose eternity for a few, just a few. Think about all the nations, people, only a few are going to heaven. This is not what I say. It’s his words in the Bible. Matthew 7 – 13-14. Oh, and he says so much more to those who he lets see and hear. To the foolish man it’s all foolishness. He can’t understand. This is a sad fact. Praise and Glory to You Almighty God, Creator of Everything From the Beginning Until The End of this earth as we know it and Then Eternally. MY Lord, My God Forever! Don’t take away or add to his word. Rev 22-18
Because we are all evil unless born again and covered by Jesus’s blood on the cross. We do evil always. One sin uncovered is enough to send us to hades. I know I would go there without the Lord pulling me out. He granted me mercy once and for all. I know he is in my life everyday. I feel him at work changing me for his glory. If it wasn’t for his mercy no one would be saved.
This last week was pretty trying indeed. I asked my husband was there any reason for us to continue the pretense. I meant we both know there are oceans between us literally. After arguing about this and that. I told him I still love him and always will. He told me he loves no one from his past or present, just his kids. As often I have tried to explain to him that if he doesn’t forgive me or love me. Jesus won’t love him or forgive him in the end. I still love my whole family.
I am having words with every unbeliever. God said he did not come to make unbelievers and believers get along, not the exact words but, the gist of it. It is so true. My parents have been doing some searching but, still think their church is the first one ever. I know the Bible is the true and perfect word. The only way through Jesus to God. It just seems a fury happens when you say you have to be born again in spirit.
What is so blinding, pride, riches, righteousness? God only reveals his word to whom he wishes. Those in the beatitudes. Matthew 5 1-10 read on. I don’t know why some and not others. We can only try because we don’t know when we find one with his help. I’m not giving up, ever.
I said my account was hacked, words with my mom and dad, end of my marriage except the paper… Then I have my brother meet a Christian friend and they end up in a physical fight. I don’t know what to think. My brother says apostate, unbeliever. I told my friend to stop trying to Lord it over my brother. I asked him to stop many times. My brother took off way ahead, we were on a bike ride. I had prayed and my friend also and others many weeks for my brother. He was having doubts about his faith. I admit I told my brother a few minutes before meeting my friend. Not quite intuitive on my part. What I wanted was someone to listen only. I did not say so to my friend. He knew the fragility of my brother though. Anyway it turned ugly quick. I promised my brother never to do it again. I am alarmed at my friend for what he did. So much I am having a visit with my pastor. Are we Christians not to show love first, understanding, genuine care? We should not try to Lord it over someone. I am guilty too. I get angry or frustrated sometimes but, I am learning to do better with the Lord’s help. I think getting physical shows immaturity as a Christian no matter how long you are one or claim to be one. Putting Christians together should work I thought. Wow what an eye opener.
Looking forward now again. Looking back does no good and tomorrow will take care of itself.
I believe my husband hacked by hotmail account. Took it over I had to change my password four times. He changed the language to Arabic. He forwarded it to some other email. With the Lord’s help I got through fixing it. I wrote him and email saying it was fun figuring it out, inviting him to try again. I told him I love you and Jesus does too. I won’t go into all the details but what got him angry was. That I told him he is not sovereign over me or anyone else. That God is the only Sovereignty. You know every unbeliever rebels against that. They get angry when you invade their space with the truth they don’t want to realize because they are blinded and belong to satan’s world system. If you love this world you belong to him. If you love your life and won’t give it to the Lord you will lose it. John MacArthur says “Why are we so afraid of the Gospel”. It’s because it has God’s perfect truth, his words to live in his word. To the foolish man the Bible cannot ever make sense. They love living in the dark in their sins. I am joyous and other elect Christians are because we are in the light and hate the darkness and evil and sin. God has blessed us for no reason but, we follow him willingly. We are still sinners like everyone else. Our sins are forgiven because we know that Jesus took all of them away when he died on the cross. We are not perfect we still fight our fleshly or carnal desires but, we persevere in the Spirit and total love from the Lord Jesus Christ our King, God Almighty Father Forever.
The Greatest Gift
“…do not fear, for I am with you; do not be dismayed for I am your God.
I will strength you and help you; I will uphold you with my
righteous right hand.” Isaiah 41:10
Are you ready? Is your life right with Lord? If he came today would you be ready? Or are you just going along in life with no worries about what will come? Born-again Christians are always ready. Jesus knows his sheep and they know him. Yes, it’s in the Bible. We are not afraid to leave here. We are waiting for the time to come, being always prepared. We study his word, follow his ways and try to win lost souls for him. I have to admit I don’t think I’ve done that yet. I won’t ever give up though. I am always trying. I always speak of the Lord when I get the chance. I ask usually if they read their Bible. It doesn’t go to far but, at least I have tried. I am here with my parents, always praying they will see. Mom is reading a bit still when she takes my dad to radiation and chemo. He is going to be around for his birthday, November 14, God willing. We have been getting along very well since I stopped preaching. It is hard to do. I see, I hear and they don’t even hear the awful things they say sometimes. Sometimes it’s the favorite saying “Holy Hell” Yep, I said it. I don’t think hell will be Holy. Yesterday at Kmart, they had the skulls with cloth hanging, like a body. I said those look like bodies fit for hell. Over the head, of course I know and other Christians get it. We want and will have the glorified body for Heaven and serving the Lord eternally. We will be getting those because we are his. We are following his ways till the end, whenever the end comes. Thank you Lord for all you did to bring me a worthless sinner into the light. I did not in any way deserve it. We know you chose before creation your sheep. There is no reason for your choice. You just gave mercy to some and will not to others. We are no better than any other sinner, except we repented our sins and gave our souls to you. Jesus died on the cross for us to be forgiven. He took all our sins unto death.
All the signs are here, wars, rumors of wars. Israel threatened to bomb all of Lebanon, Syria, the Palestinians if Tel Aviv is attacked. Obama had given Israel bunker busters for bombing nuke sites in Iran. Just after the attempted killing plot of the Ambassador from Saudi Arabia it was announced. The Syrian Army is already inside Lebanon and no one really is giving answers about why. Are they gearing up for something more than in their own country? I would guess yes. The U.S. is falling apart and Europe. No jobs, no real good outlook in sight for anything. Food prices, gasoline, still companies are out-sourcing jobs. I didn’t live in the Great Depression but, this is very bad in comparison I’m sure.
The world is showing signs and more signs. Say it’s been rumored before and before that. I still don’t care if it’s now or later. We won’t be caught following the evil one to hell. This world will pass away. Everyone, every nation will mourn when they see Jesus at his Second Coming. All will know that “He is Lord” who was, who is and who is to come. Revelation 1:4
Blessed is he who reads the words of this prophesy, and keeps those things which are written in it; for the time is near. Revelation 1:3.
Dad’s dying. His numbers are edging up. The chemo and radiation may help a bit. I pray for him to know you, and my mom and family before they go. I pray for my daughter fifteen Oct 19th and all the family in Lebanon. I have no contact. I pray for all that is going badly in this world of satan’s system. I want to wake up and be in heaven soon. I can bear the suffering, you did more for me. I just have to give it to you and let it go. It’s in my face though everyday. This life is so short and sometimes people will never get that you are the only way to eternal peace, joy, no pain and suffering. Prayers for all. Love and Glory to our Lord. He was, he is, he will always be a Sovereign God. Everyone pray unceasingly.
Everywhere you look disaster. People killing people. Rage, hate, war, threats of war, starvation, immoral living. Israel says if Tel Aviv is attacked it will bomb Syria, Lebanon and the Palestinians. All the horror in all those Middle East countries. There will never be peace until the Tribulation begins. After three and a half years it’s over. Only God knows when that will happen. So we must be prepared. I told my daughter and family in Lebanon they need to know Jesus. She said he is her Savior, yet she hates her mother and disowned her. Because her mother had a breakdown and was diagnosed bipolar 1 with P.T.S.D. Where is forgiveness? Did I asked to have these disorders. Others have diabetes, cancer, polycystic kidney disease (my husband), many in the family have it. Those diseases don’t hurt other people around you I’m told. I forgive their misunderstanding. I take the credit for the destruction of my marriage and family, but what does it matter? God can only make it right, if it’s his will. I pray everyday it is. I have no contact. Her fifteenth birthday is October 19th. I won’t send a card. I bought it though. Where is the love I used to have? It’s not of this world it’s from the Lord above. Search till the end of time. There is no unconditional love except his. I know first hand, being broken, helpless, worthless and isolated. The Lord is not looking for the self-righteous people cruising through life with no attention to what’s going on. Not many are seeing this totally evil and destructive world, immoral and disgusting, more and more everyday. He is adding to his church in the hearts of his believers (the elect) everyday. Once the church is full, his wrath is upon this earth. Woe to you that do not heed and turn to him. Woe to the foolish who can’t understand or search for God. You don’t need or want him. All of us are worthless sinners. One no better than another. The difference is repentance, forgiveness, new life in the Lord. A turning away from your old rotten self to be made anew in Lord Jesus. We are born depraved and that’s why Jesus died on the cross. He took all our punishment. Our free gift of grace. Blessed are the ones that never see. They just believe. We give our hearts fully everyday. We know he loves us and abides in us. If you don’t know that for sure you are not his. If you die now, tomorrow, or next week, whenever, where will you go? Heaven or Hell? Jesus chose Heaven for us, a few that find that narrow gate. God Bless Us All, Amen. God bless the ones who never see or believe…