From the Book “King’s Cross” by Timothy Keller. It’s a quote from C.S. Lewis-Mere Christianity: The more we get what we now call “ourselves” out of the way and let Him take us over, the more truly ourselves we become….our real selves are all waiting for us in him….The more I resist Him and try to live on my own, the more I become dominated by my own heredity and upbringing and surrounding and natural desires. In fact what I proudly call “Myself” becomes merely the meeting-place for trains of events which I never started and I cannot stop. What I call “My Wishes” becomes merely the desires thrown up by my physical organism or pumped into me by other men’s thoughts….It is when I turn to Christ, when I give myself up to His personality, that I finally begin to have a real personality all of my own….[Nevertheless], you must not go to Christ for the sake of [a new self]. As long as your own personality is what you are bothering about you are not going to Him at all.
From Timothy Keller-King’s Cross: For us, the Kingdom of God begins with weakness, relinquishment, giving up our rights to our own life; it begins with admitting that we need a Savior. We need someone to fulfill all the requirements and pay for our sin. That’s weakness. Jesus started in weakness–first, by becoming human, and second, by going to a cross. And if we want him in our life, we have to start in weakness too. The Kingdom begins there, but it won’t end there. Someday, when Jesus returns and ushers in a renewed creation, love will totally triumph over hate and life will totally triumph over death.
No explaining needed for me and I hope many others. I was holding back and now no more. Trying to solve all my troubles. It can’t be done, by me.