I am posting this because God knows I am already sorry.


No daughter, no marriage what’s the use. She disowned me first, fourteen or not. You read it, it is definite she wants me out of her life forever and ever. I will grant her and all of you that wish. It’s God’s will. We may not be here much longer anyway. There will be no money for anyone to use. Paper money will be worth nothing. America avoided one downfall. There’s another in November. The rich won’t pay their fair share, always loopholes. Let’s cheat to pile up gold and treasure so we can sit on them before we go to Hell. It’s harder for a rich man to enter heaven, then a camel to go through the eye of a needle. If I don’t see you again. I will in Israel, on the Mt. of Olives, at the judgement, by Jesus Christ the King of Kings. If you are on the left you’re a goat, as a sheep on the right you are able to enter the Kingdom. You can find out yourself what happens to goats. I am not judging you. I am stating fact. This will happen after the end of tribulation. Christians will be raptured (The Church not a building) ahead of this time. If you want to eat you’ll have to take the mark of satan or die. You can die once or twice. The second death will be that banana peel thrown into the hole, you spoke of. Guess what no one by God’s choice and total repentance has to be here during that time. Even after we are gone the hardened hearts will become more hardened and still won’t believe. Even after all the birth pangs and disaster upon disaster, no repentance, because they hate Jesus Christ, so they hate God and his chosen people, Israel. What line do you want to be in.? I am telling you this to help you. I am no more or better than you or anyone else. All of us fall short of the Glory of God. We can believe by Grace and never seeing but, believing and let him have our souls. The Jews, Pharisees and Elders of the synagogues crucified Jesus. They kept trying to find a way to get rid of him. They said his miracles were of the devil. They only saw their laws and rituals being broken, that meant nothing. They said after he performed miracles on the Sabbath that he broke the law to do work on God’s Holy Day. All this is in the New Testament. Old Testament prophesies from Isaiah, Jeremiah, Lamentations, Ezekiel (describes a vision of the end and the setting up of the Millennial Temple of Jesus the King on Earth for 1000 years) after that the final judgement, second death. Then the Eternal Kingdom Forever. All the Temples have descriptions laid out with exact dimensions and descriptions. Just like the dimensions he gave for Noah and the ark and so forth, explicit details revealed for the mobile Temple throughout 40 years with Moses. Then of Solomon’s Temple destroyed by Nebuchadnezzar. After 70 years of captivity in Babylon, Jews were freed to return to Israel and built Zerubbabel’s Temple desecrated by Antichus Epiphanes. Herod rebuilt that Temple before the time of Jesus. It was destroyed by the Romans. The Present Temple is found in the Heart of Believers until Jesus returns. Then the Revelation Temple built during the Tribulation by the Antichrist and will be destroyed during Christ’s Second Coming. The Cedars of Lebanon were used to build it Solomon’s Temple. Daniel, Hosea, Joel, Amos, and so forth. All prophesying the coming of one before Christ in the Wilderness, John the Baptist, who was beheaded. The Old Testament, warnings upon warnings of what is to come. The New Testament , Jesus predicting his own death and betrayal by Judas. No building and rituals can save you. They are an abomination to God. They are set up by men to be the Godhead on earth. Judging us and revealing to us mostly nothing of the Bible and real salvation. There is only one Mediator, Jesus Christ between us and God. Rituals and churches based on men are a deception of satan. Why do you think he leaves you alone? You are doing his bidding following the system, relying on yourself to earn your way to Heaven. Showing nothing but hate, bitterness, no forgiveness, no love for your brothers and sisters. It’s impossible without being broken-hearted, worthless and hopeless, and forgiving, loving. That is the point when you say I am not worthy, I repent, I give up. Lord take control of my life and soul. Before I do what the devil wants and kill myself. If this falls on deaf ears that’s okay. We tried.


I RESPONDED TO IT WITH A BIG YES. I AM OUT OF YOUR LIFE. I WENT TO SLEEP AT 7 PM AFTER TAKING 2 PILLS AND CRYING MY EYES OUT. Why stay married when I don’t have a daughter. She wants nothing from me. I will obey her wishes.
She said sorry dad it had to be done.


Everyone was here for dad this weekend.

We all were here all four children. Mom and even my Aunt came by. We are all going through hard times with him. He doesn’t want to talk, be bothered, or asked how he feels. He is not eating well maybe 700-1000 calories a day. He’s worried about his glucose count. He went from 180-145lbs since Aug-Sept last year. He was diagnosed in March with pancreatic cancer. He goes to the doctor today, a requested emergency appointment. We all think he needs something for depression and irritability. We can’t share anything with him. Yes, he is dying but, we need closeness and want to help with him dying too. His pride of being independent and strong and self-righteous is in the way. He is leaving us with last days of much distance. Why would you want to punish your family. All we want is to give him loving care and support. His pride will not let him accept this. He shuns my mom the most. We just sat here most of the weekend with hardly any words for us. We all know the sting of death isn’t easy. He hasn’t accepted Jesus as Lord and Savior. His eyes are blinded and may stay that way, only God knows. My brother and I have done our part to help by sharing the word, through the Lord in our souls. To him it’s preaching and unwanted. Maybe I’ll get that one last chance Lord willing, before he finally goes. For now I can’t say anything because, I’m preaching and he cannot understand. We are rejected by everyone, except my Aunt. Our views are not theirs, therefore have yours and we have our Catholic (apostate) views. You can’t earn your way to heaven into the presence of the Lord God Almighty. He called and predestined each elect before the world began. We are still called to do our best as disciples, which we will do. Only a few find the narrow gate. The rest the wide gate to destruction. Matthew 7:13-14